i think i'm just going to leave my load and look like nothing has happened. this world's sarcastic. i don't like it. what the.
i hate being a good person, it doesn't do me any good.
oh. i miss you, jackie. you appreciate me.
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20 May, 2005
What is a youth? What is happiness
I'm not happy today.My friend died.She was a 14 year old girl from Macau coming to Hong Kong for bone marrow transplant. She was well, looking good and happy.Within a few weeks she was bold, locked up in a room with plastic walls, lines running out from her veins and she became yellow, always vomiting when I went to talk to her. Her smile was gone.I remembered when she first arrived, looking bewildered at everything, jumping and smiling and talking to me. 'The hospital is a boring place', she told me. I always saw her jumping and running around the ward, acting not exactly like a 14 year old. But then I thought, wasn't it great to be so young and so carefree... what the heck. That is YOUTH.But now, she's no more. It made me cry hearing this news today. I was shocked to bits.I cannot believe someone so lively and so 'here' with me was gone. My friend, Tak Fan.I cannot believe a 4-person family is now shattered. How lonely would her sister be.I cannot believe why a happy and well-behaved child gets taken away by God. She deserved all the best.
Sometimes, I thought I deserved more too. But now I don't ask for anything else.
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