i remembered how my life used to be. i miss home. i miss letty, grandma, and i miss myself. i used to have lots of ideas for lunch and dinner and my fridge was always filled with exotic things. i remembered my life with energy and vibrance. how energetic was i with filling up my bookshelf with new books. how straight and long my hair used to be. the way i used to play the piano. whenever i heard something special on radio 4 i'd jot the name down and get the manuscript from the music library so i could start learning it. i remembered my black piano, shiny, and lacquered. i remember releasing all my emotions through the piano before the release of my supplementary exam results in year 2, or whenever i can't concentrate on my work. i'd always play the furious gershwin's no.3. then letty would come in and ask if i can play 'solitude'! and that was how it goes...

this morning when the sun was slowly greeting me through the contour of the mountain outside, the radio alarm turned itself on and there it was, chopin's impromptu no. 51 and my once-favourite barcarolle. oh, it seemed such a long time ago. the sweet melodies brought tears to my eyes. how i missed my youth! but seabreeze was right. i have loads to look forward to. after all i'm only 25! i promise after my exams i'll be brought back to life once again! i've got so much lined up already...

with God's grace it'll be a great day today!