(my heart feels dark and, consolable?)

can perfect day end with a flaw? then it wouldn't be a perfect day would it? i'd always thought. i had a beautiful heart. always thought i'd give my best intention to others and they would receive the best. but unfortunately life is not calculated in this way, or least, not how i have calculated it. behind the mirror of the smiley face is the girl with flat lips. who has bumped into a blunted of a road several times. who is not having much confidence in herself let alone for others. who isn't beautiful at all, with many ugly flaws like the umbilicus and the frowning face and bony physique. i wonder for how long i can be truthful and real to you? really 60 years? can i still? coz you know now, i'm not as beautiful and not flawless as you imagined.

if you'll digest all of me including all my weaknesses as i'll try to do to you....