(Hyde Park, London. Wish I am as carefree like these flowers)

as i walked through the corridor in hospital today i wondered what it meant to convert a valley of sorrow into a well of hope. i didn't think i could do it. today i nearly collapsed. not because of work and incompetence or incapability, but with myself. felt i've been fooled by two of my best friends. it felt so disgusting and gross i felt so angry with me being so foolish and naive, and felt hopeless and lost. i tell myself it must be a punishment for being too plain and having too much faith in them. whatever.

but then after having stayed out all night furious until midnight, after asking all those dumb questions that nobody could answer, i came back home and my fire was suddenly extinguished. after all, there's just myself.

sad, isn't it. for there are so many questions in this world that you cannot answer, only left to your imagination until......